Sunday, October 14, 2012

Ponderings of a Tired Mommy

Rough Night.

My sweet second born's sleeping schedule was like a dream the first 4 months of her life. The Lord must have known that I needed good sleep those first few months of transitioning into being a mother of two.

We hit the 6 month milestone a few days ago and it's been two months since I've had a full night of sleep. I'm not really complaining...really. ;) But, last night was a particularly rough night. As I type this, it's approaching 6 am and the sun has yet to come up. My baby girl, who has caught the family's cold, has only been back to bed for about 15 minutes after a night of being up every hour or so and up for the day at 3am. I finally gave in and made myself a cup of coffee. The result...I'm wide awake pondering motherhood.

What was the big revelation of my pondering? It's hard. Yeah, I know...big revelation.

The moments right before I put Joelle back to bed this morning, I held the weight of her tired body in my arms as her little eyes fluttered to stay open and she finally gave up. I had an overwhelming sense of thankfulness for that very moment.

It's as if the pain of the night dissipated and I remembered it was worth it.

Here is a song that has really spoke to me recently. If you're a mom in a particularly difficult season of life too, take a listen. I hope it encourages you.

You're The Best Song I'll Ever Write- Bethany Dillon
 
This was the only youtube copy of the song I could find, but it cuts off the last part of the song...my favorite part. Here are the lyrics-
 Every prayer for you is like a seed in the ground
Every tear I cry is like rain
And in its due season
I pray a harvest will be found
Your heart and mouth confessing Jesus' name



Dear Audrey and Joelle-

Although I'm tired now, you're worth every sleepless night....

Love,

You're tired Mommy

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